Ein AusLANDER

The adventure continues . . slower than I thought it would

There has been a lot of gradual change in these past few months and it hasn’t always been clear to me that it is happening. When you stare at something for a long time you don’t really see it change. You don’t notice your hair growing everyday but when someone has not seen you for months they notice.

Somewhere near Penicuik, somewhere in the wilderness . .

Well, I have not really been able to notice. The job situation is identical, I have applied for 30 jobs in the last month, but I will spare the details. I had a good moment a week ago walking around the countryside near Penicuik (a place I have now moved to) feeling completely lost and out of phase, but comfortable and happy for my existence in that moment to only consist of directionless walking.

I no longer live with my girlfriend, but we are happy. Germany is still a matter of when and where (exactly), rather than if. I feel like I need to express myself again with music. I have been back to England twice and brought a ukulele back with me. I will be recording music (some how) over the internet with someone that I have been in two bands with in the past.

I have become somehow lost. I feel that I am treading water whilst I wait for the next important moment/opportunity to happen.

I think a lot and fondly about Germany.